Failure

What comes to you mind when I said "failure"?
What did you fail in? Are you alright? It's okay, things will be get better.
These will naturally dash through your mind upon seeing the word "failure".
Yes, i failed, fail to host an outing which everyone will be able to make it.
The truth. I wasn't someone who host an event, inviting friends to go for that during secondary school days,
but i'm doing it currently in my poly life.
Why? Why am I doing this? What's my purpose of gathering everyone during the holidays?
I'm not blaming those who couldn't make it for the outing but instead or rather i simply see myself as a total failure.
I believe that organising a chalet is hard but I firmly believe that organising a simple gathering is absolutely easy.
It's such an easy task but i couldn't get everyone to make it just for a day!
I call myself a failure.
It was supposedly a 14 people outing but now it's only half or maybe less than half has confirmed with me.
Due to the bad weather nowadays, i suggested a change in the venue from Marina barrage to Bugis, but i received negative comments.
Frankly speaking, if hosting an outing is this difficult, to the extent that quarrels arise, till the extent that friendship is getting ruined, I would choose to be stuck at home everyday.
I'm tired. Calling every single person, persuading them to go tomorrow just drain me.
Don't get me wrong. I don't blame any of the 14 ppl, really. I'm blaming no one in particular but myself.
I pray hard for the best tomorrow. Hopefully it's not a screwed up one.