You are a part of my.....

It's been a long long time since I last posted :D

Yeah, finally term tests are over! Okay, I don't know why I didn't feel relieve this time round even though exams are over. Maybe it's due to the fact that I didn't do well for first 3 papers :C

Saddening rawrrrr! Oh wells, don't feel like mentioning about it anymore :/

Okay, right now, I want to say out how I have been feeling for the past few days.....

The main part of this post will be a friend of mine.

She's a part of my life, a part since I entered poly. The both of us are 'good friends' on the outside but the both of us got nearly zero contact after school. I've been betrayed by her a couple of times, thus I trust her no more. It was until recently that I found out that even though she had done so many bad deeds towards me, I shouldn't have doubted her. :/ I am so so wrong this time round. When she needed me, I wasn't there for her. I even thought she was just lying all along, trying to make everyone sympathize her. But no, hell no. I am wrong. Seriously wrong. I was extremely confused when I heard the news from her, really clueless about my remaining steps. If i hated her for being such "friend" to me, who betrayed me in everything, and so who am I then if I treated her this way? Ain't I doing the same thing? Okay, I'm not trying to say that I betrayed her or whatsoever, but yeah, i was wrong this time round. All I want to say is Sorry. Sorry for not trusting you, sorry for not picking up your calls when you needed someone to talk. I am feeling guilty ever since I learnt about the news. Seriously, regretted my actions!!

Not to worry. Although I can't assure you that I will be by your side when you need me, but I will definitely do a better job this time round. Of course, the past still affects me but I no longer care. Really, I just want you to be well and fine and continue with your life. Please do take care of your health. Results are not the only component in your life, though it is an impt part in our life, yeah but what else is more important than health? Please, that sms which I've sent to you, bear it in mind!! I don't wish to be the group leader okay -.-

Sorry for making another friend of mine sad/guilty. Seriously what the hell is wrong with me@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@# !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Holidays

My holidays were well spent!! They are just great, awesome, interesting :D I have been spending my holidays playing sports in terms of bball and badminton; going out with friends especially secondary friends. I didn't have a chance to meet up with them at all during the previous holidays because i was strictly prohibited to do so ): HAHA! So since I have my "freedom" now, i shall make full use of it! Okay, not only going out for sports, meet ups and also going for movies with *ah hem*. Don't ask me who arh! You guys should know ^^(V) HAHAHAHAHA! He bought me a phone cover (pink)! Love it alot! As i was yearning for it for quite sometime. Since I wasn't working so I don't have that cash to buy that. HAHA! I bought a pair of keychains at Nex for him and I :) Omg, readers or to whoever who are reading this post, Nex is an ultimate awesome place that everyone should go and visit someday! Or shop. (Using the word 'visit' is kinda weird haha!) Not only it allows people to shop, eat, play in the Arcade, most importantly, i love their pet shop because it's the 1st time i have been to a pet shop with 2 storeys! HAHAHA! :) The pets there are soooooo adorable! REALLY! Go and look at them! :)

Another thing, the movie "Red Riding Hood" is good too! Okay lah, don't have to mention who i went out with uh. Hehe! The show wasn't good because I went out with him(opps*) but it's due to the storyline behind it. Somehow horrifying scenes happened in the show and then romance. HAHA! Sad thing is, I think I've been spending too much in this holidays! Though it's still nice to meet up with my ex classmates once in a while because all of us are just so busy that we could hardly squeeze out time to meet :( however, money is still the key. So, I will be working from tomorrow onwards! Gonna get some cash into my bank and then slowly, take them out again. HAHAHAHA! No lah, gonna save it :) HEHE.

Hope tomorrow's work will be smooth. Don't wanna get scolding during the first day of work. HAHA! Maybe I shall decorate my blog abit here and there UH! It's too plain! :( Anyone can offer help? :)

Love it~

Geraldine is happy today! :)

Past and Present

Hi! I'm back! HAHAHA :) Okay, I promise all readers that I will update my blog once/twice in a week alright? :) Some are getting impatient or rather pissed because there were no updates ever since 3 months I guess? Haha! As the above mentioned, 'Past and Present', so yup that's what I'm going to talk about today :D

Everyone makes mistakes. Yes, we all got to admit this FACT. Yup, so do I. I make mistakes too but do people repeat their mistakes in the future or they choose to learn from their mistakes? Well, every mistake that YOU made, YOU have to learn from it. This is what pushes us forward. Because we make mistake, learn from it, never repeat it and therefore, we become another individual. What I'm trying to say is. Even if you've done something wrong, no matter how it affects you, how it managed to change your life, just remember one thing. Mistakes are there so that they can lead you into the right path. So, we should actually thank the mistakes made. HAHA! :) Your past affects your mentality and thus changes your future which includes your present.

I talked to him on msn few days ago :/ I realized that he's still a part of my current life. No matter how hard I tried not to look at him in sch or trying to forget him, guess what? I added him back on msn and unblock him. :/ I went to IT fair at Suntec today and one of my friend told me that he's working there too! I was shocked because I wouldnt know how to face him but when I started worrying about that, he was right beside me already. Okay, for the details, I shall not say it here :D

Even though I would want to go back to him which I had that urge to do so when he asked me for a return, I did not agree D: Because I find that it's not worth it. I have spent my past 9 MONTHS! YES 9 MONTHS to forget about him and just get rid of him out of my mind. Till now, I failed.... I failed to forget D:

I believe time heals but will it heal everything? Doubt so!

Kay, hope the first half of the post will brighten up my readers' life! XD

Goodnight!

Screwed up

Hi, I'm back! Like finally? Haha. Life's rather screwed for me nowadays I guess):

It's getting nearer to the final year exams which will take place in just 3 weeks time. ):

Chiong arhhhhhhhhhhhh! Gonna really put in my best effort for this particular semester :)

Anyway, i've been asking myself this qn and it has been bothering me for quite sometime.

Which will you pick if you can only choose one out of the two? Friends or love?

This thing bothered me for quite sometime before sch reopens and now it's coming back ):

Can someone tell me what to do? Will you leave ur friend for ur lover? Or would you do otherwise?

This decision is getting harder as days pass by. Initially, i was rather quick with my answer.

"Of course friends la!" However, after much consideration, both friends and love seem to be balanced out on my see-saw. I am really lost.

This kinda thing shouldn't be disturbing me at this moment but it just occurs and its hard not to think about it. For now, i am still considering which side to give up. Most probably the lover.

Friends are hard to come by, especially close friends. Lovers can just come and go but friends come and stay.

Alright, that's all for today. Hope tomorrow will be a better day!

Goodnight!

2011 is here (:

A new year, a new beginning, a new life XD

Welcome 2011 and goodbye 2010!

Okay, 2010 was quite a fulfilling year for me though. I had my ups and downs in 2010 but all were worth it. Though those downs affected me negatively, but when i recalled them, I realized that there were the ones who grabbed me up and pushed me forward. I had my 1st relationship that year, though it failed, but i am glad that i had experienced it. It was also a year that my GPA got pulled up (: From a 3.58 for sem 1.2 to a 3.75 in sem 2.1. Oh well, I hope I can do better in sem 2.2 xD I had my 1st bday celebration with my clique too! I was surprised by their surprise, really. Haha! I had my 1st xmas exchange with someone too! (: I became an orientation leader on April and it was a great experience. I can say that my freshies are a bunch of monkeys who had given me the chance to be a good OL. (: YOG happened in 2010 too! And i watched almost all games on bball, badminton and table tennis. Gosh! I love sports like crazy! I do not have SCV so it's a pity that I am not able to watch sports games anytime I want so that 2 weeks of YOG period was my best "sports day". (: HAHA! I have been hanging out with my clique for last few days of 2010, celebrating JJ's bday and watching movies with them! You know, it's very rare for me to watch movie with my clique cos they don't love movies! Hahaha! And, lastly, not forgetting my secondary school friend, Jiahui. I met her after so long! We met on the last day of 2010-.- HAHA! Okay, her sis was there disturbing me with a $2 note. ROAR! Hahaha! (:

So, in summary, I'm very satisfied with my life in 2010 but I hope for the better in 2011! (: I want to make my day fulfilling. I mean everyday so I will not leave room for regrets! =)

Happy New Year to all my friends out there! (: (: (:

A guy who is with me throughout (:

I don't know what had occured to the both of us. Today is Christmas, so it is meant to be a good day for everyone. I wonder why things always happen at a wrong timing. You said you feel a crack whenever you read my blog, but have you ever know that every single post on your facebook wall lead me towards some random thinking? Okay, let me get everything straight by writing down here...........

As you know, we're still friends but the both of us know that we are more than just normal friends. Haha. This is great okay, so laugh! MUHAHAHA! -.- Not funny -.- And we know that we wont be together for now. Thats why i said we are better off as friends. Yea, as friends. Today is Christmas and i've been wondering how our conversation can continue since morning. How can I make our lives happier than what we are undergoing today. How can I make you smile while no one else is able to do it? How can I be the one that show you care when you need it. You once complained that I didnt shower you concern. Few egs; when you said you flunked your paper, i did not bother. This is because I was too busy with my term tests preparation, and frankly, nothing else matters more than that, to me. Next, whenever i wrote things abt him on my blog, have i ever care for your feelings? Thats why this is called a blog. I just write whatever thoughts i have down, not concerning about the consequences that I can get.

I know I have been restricting myself from getting commited too deeply. Sorry, this takes time. I'm sure you know. (: However, you're really a great guy I can say. Because you.........

1. Cheer me up whenever I'm down.

2. Bought for me tea when I was sick.

3. Helping me with my research whenever i'm stuck at certain areas.

4. Being there with me when i'm doing project.

5. Waiting with me at the taxi-stand or bus-stop for my parents.

Actually there are tonnes lots of things to say, but i can't say it here.

I'm going to Auntie's house now!!! Leaving~~~~

A note for you : Smile more often. I'll make it happen.

Merry Christmas!!

Cont'd

I want to continue from my previous post! Yes, about him again and again!
Though my parents knew about this blog that i have, but who cares! Just blog!
I'm really speechless when u say u still have feelings for me and u can't forget about me.
Do u really think that I have forgotten about you?
You'll never know my feelings and you probably won't know unless before i leave the world.
Till now, I did not get together with any guy after you. However, how many girls u have already fall in love with? Countless I guess! Based on your blog, it states "final post for u.. geraldine".
I read them in sch tgt with my friends (view and daryl). Do you know what they commented on your post? Childish! That was what they said. To be frank, i find it childish toooooo!
How the heck can you like another girl at the same time when u still have gotten over me?
If u still haven't gotten over me, why bother to chase someone else?? I'm not jealous by the way.
I pity that girl. She's sad becos u're treating her as a replacement over me. Really.
I dare not accept any guys after you becos i fear of getting hurt once again. I can never forget the horror u've given me ever since I met you. You've been appearing at my house every now and then. Those horror, those quarrels and all my nightmares!!!!!!!!
I can never ever forget about them. I used to miss those times we had tgt but now i think u're a freaking jerk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

				edmund				hi
				edmund				how have u been?
				edmund				saw that u have a guy that treats u well
				edmund				yup.. zi gui?
				edmund				yup
				edmund				i finally knew the importance of friendship
				edmund				can we still chat?
				edmund				to be frank wif u
				edmund				i never forget u
				edmund				yea i know.. but we still could be good friends?
				edmund				even i cant give u happiness, i just want u to be happy
				edmund				its up to u.. my hp no is still the same
				edmund				u can text me anytime.. i will reply u
				edmund				although my greatest wish is to have a lunch with u

As you guys can see, this is what he sent via msn but i didnt reply him. BUT, pls read his blog.
You're not worth my wait. ARGH!!!!!!